My ballet class last night was so much fun.  I’m not very good at it yet.  Those little girls make it look so easy!  There are so many things to think about.  Lean slightly forward, back straight, hips tipped under; shoulders down and back; arms out, elbows up, fingers pretend to grab a marshmallow.  Toes pointed, hips turned out, don’t lean on the bar….now try to move, but don’t loose your posture.  I was never out of breath, but I’m very SORE today.

There are mirrors everywhere in the ballet room and I couldn’t help looking at myself and wishing things were different.  Well, they are going to be different. I have a vision in my mind of what I’m shaping my body to be. It’s reasonable and I’m set emotionally not to quit until I reach that goal.

I got up at 6:30 again :).  For breakfast I had my workout shake, then did Holly’s workout of the month June B.  It had more bodyweight things in it so I was able to finish, but I was still shaking by the end.  I added my ballet bar stretches as a cool down since weight lifting has greatly reduced my flexibility.  I think if I can do those stretches every day and maybe twice, I might get somewhere.  It feels good to be flexible!

I was shaking so badly after my workout, I didn’t know what to eat.  I already had my shake and there wasn’t much time so I grabbed 1/3 a protein bar.  (It’s one of those crazy big bars with 400 calories and 35g of protein so I don’t need to eat a whole one.)  I’ve been trying to do without the protein bars, but today it was that or cookies…..

It’s swimming lessons for us for this week and next.  So for my morning snack I grabbed a string cheese and an apple to eat pool side.

Lunch was the rest of my huge bowl of romaine (it’s not very fresh and lovely looking I know, but it’s what I have.)  Someone ate my last grilled chicken breast, so I quickly sautéed up some Italian turkey sausage with onions and sprinkled that over the lettuce.  Added half a diced avocado and some caesar dressing.  It tasted a whole lot better than it looked.

My Afternoon snack was the rest of the protein bar, an orange and 12 almonds.  I forgot to take a picture of it.

For dinner I made the family skillet lasagna in my electric salad master skillet.  But that wasn’t appropriate for me and by then I was so tired and in a funk I warmed up some scrambled eggs and a bit more of the turkey sausage.  Then had a plate of lettuce with fat free Italian dressing.  Not the most exciting meal, but for having a fridge as empty as mine and being too busy to shop right now, I’ll take it.

Tomorrow I get to work out with friends.  I haven’t figured out how to fit in FYM intervals into my workouts yet.  I have some bad feelings about them being too hard that I need to get over.  And I benefit emotionally a lot from working out with friends.  They choose some pretty hard stuff when we are together, but not the same as what Holly does.

P.S.  The hunger comes and goes but it does’t panic me.  I’ve noticed sometimes all I am is thirsty.  I’m chewing gum now since I feel the most hungry after dinner.  It just never seems like enough at the end of the day.